Earlier as I said, and I will say it again as its the fact, the truth that life withstand us every time. Life is a series of chronological events that happen for a reason. People come, you become friends, get comfortable with and then they leave. It’s not always in our hands to control them no matter how much we want to. I work in a nationalized bank in India and my service of 5 years has taught me this. To get stronger day by day, to not get attached to anyone soon enough, to have just professional relations because you know, they have to leave .Today or a few years later. But they have to. I was not much a socio-famous person before I joined my workplace. I didn’t know too many people. But I do now, I knowand have met a lot of people, or rather I should say bankers. People who I just know and people who I have been along with. When in Kolkata, I had some really close-to-heart people in my life. To name a few, a motherly senior maa’m at branch, A best friend like gossip and foody branch buddy, A collegues’s little daughter named Arikta, One didi (elder sister) from different branch who I met just a few times, Another didi who used to be my landlord for 2 years and her 7 yr old son who I still miss a lot. Leaving every one of them behind I shifted to a new city with my husband after marriage. New people,collegues, neighbor etc, with whom I was mentally prepared for not having such attachment. But well, I am me, and I can’t just be practical and do my job. In short I am an emotional fool who cries for no reason (well, there is always a reason behind, always). But life and banking goes on. It doesn’t wait for you to loosen up the knot you tied. I am not loosing people in my life, in the process I am only gaining them with experience. But why is it so important ? Why can’t time just wait with us as long as I want it too.
Some people really clicks at the moment you meet them. It happened with one of my new office-mates. But they as I said, everything is just temporary. They leave and you have to move on. The last week 30th july to 4th of Aug 2018, I named the week as ‘the departure’. I couldn’t stop myself from writing this at the end. The week started with a retirement of the oldest member in our bank.Well that went off well.The very day I returned home to find out one of my goldies (gold fish) died. All 5 of them were keeping really good for so many months in my tank. Another day a very beautiful lifer -emerald dove (a bird I have never seen before with my eyes) hit an electric pole and fell down in front of me. I was there, I fed him water but he couldn’t survive for more than a few seconds. It died in my palm. Its the first time that someone died on my hand. And I can’t really explain how bad it felt. I came home with an already heavy heart because a
very close friend had to leave too by this weekend for another state. I worked with him for 2 years and it was so much fun.And with that, I ended up my weekend loosing another friend with whom I have talked like crazy. To top of that, one more senior had to be relieved too the very same day who understood my photography and passion for birds and encouraged.
Sometimes, it feels like who-ever is close to you is so far. Thousands of kilometers away from you but they will say, they care. But does that really matter? You can’t have them when you need and they can’t have you when they need. Well that’s life I guess. Our times are different from what our parents had. They used to stay at the same place for years and make friends and memories, a lot of them to cherish later. I have them too. The Memories. But I guess, that’s not just enough for me. I feel bad, and I will always feel bad no matter how strong life makes me.
Well CHANGE is the only constant thing in life and no matter what, things will keep on changing and life will keep on moving. Well that’s life’s job and my job is to get emotional and sob alone. I guess that’s the reason we get married so to have someone with you forever to laugh, to cry and to live until life takes it all…